Week 2 Weigh-In

I had a great week and a terrible weekend... luckily the week was good enough to knock off a pound even though I sabotaged myself big time once the weekend hit. My Birthday is this week, so I will be happy if I can work out a few times and not screw up too bad. Stress is a killer! Well, the scale is still moving in the right direction, so I just have to work for at least another pound this week!

Starting Weight (Apr. 27, 2009): 280 lbs.
Starting BMI: 39
Weight Last Weigh in: (May 4, 2009) 278 lbs.
Weight Today (May 11, 2009): 277 lbs.
Current BMI: 38.7

Weight Change This Week: -1 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 3 pounds
Goal Streak: 2 weeks in a row

NEXT GOAL: 270 lbs. (7 lbs. to go)

Week 1 Weigh-In

Well, 2 pounds down this first week! I have been going to the gym every other day and doing more cardio and weight lifting each day. I feel so much better and I haven't gotten sick or anything like I sometimes do when i start working out. I went to the gym at lunch time today and am going running again tonight, and I ate a pretty healthy lunch! It's easy to be motivated at first, I think I need to identify when I start making bad choices.

Starting Weight (Apr. 27, 2009): 280 lbs.
Starting BMI: 39
Weight Last Weigh in: (Apr. 27, 2009) 280 lbs.
Weight Today (May. 4, 2009): 278 lbs.
Current BMI: 38.8

Weight Change This Week: -2 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 2 pounds
Goal Streak: 1 weeks in a row

NEXT GOAL: 270 lbs. (8 lbs. to go)

I fear change... I guess

So, I've gone up and down within 10 pounds for the last year plus and really have made little to no progress. My blood pressure is high and i am really starting to feel the effects of being overweight! I need to change, but somehow my discipline or will-power is sooo poor. I know it isn't supposed to be easy, but I get so angry at myself for choosing the easy way or the lazy way through the day! So I weighed myself on Monday and I was back to 280 again so i watched what I ate for the most part this week and went to the gym twice. I feel good about this week and I'm sore and all that good stuff, but I have lost all confidence in myself to keep this up. I really don't know what to do to really make the lasting change that I need. All I know is to try to work out every day and count calories every day and drink lots of water etc. So, I guess I just have to start over again and hope it takes this time. I wish I could figure out what is stopping me from making the changes I need... maybe it would be good to go and talk to a counselor or something to find out what I can do mentally! I HAVE to be healthier!!! I'll check back in on Monday...